Just taking a little joy ride on the back roads.
Life’s a bitch
This is why i’m learning more towards not giving a rats ass about any of the girls I date, because none of them seem to have value for any type of commitment and act purely off emotions at that point in time.
Yet they have this lust to see how far they can bend men before we break?
They pull you in and make you believe that you’re everything in the world to them, to only find out by the next day they’ve completely had a change of heart.
So here’s my story and why i’m in a: Depressed, hopeless, loss of will power, confidence mood.
3 months ago while at work carrying away with his normal day to day duties a new girl walks in. Boy meets girl one day when she’s been instructed to sit with said boy to get a feel for the job. With in 5 minutes afterwards boy & girl make eye contact and a spark or connection was set off.
They begin to talk back and forth, carrying about work related stuff but quickly moving off the work related topic and into more personal things. As days go by she continues to sit with this particular boy and they continue to converse about their lifes. One thing after another, boy and girl start to recognize that they have a LOT of things in common, think alike in almost the exact same way, share the same hobbies, have the same point of view on multiple topics and about life. Not to mention, their looks and body characteristics were almost identical.. They had realized that they had so much in common that it was actually scary, the other could almost predict what the other was going to say.. but they enjoyed and laughed about it.
Week goes by and things continue to heat up between the two, with constant talk on a daily basis almost non stop, girl bringing boy breakfast in the mornings and so they continue the talking after work and talk almost non stop until either they both or one of the two fall asleep at the phone.
Couple more weeks go on by and they finally go out (due to unfortunate delays that could not be avoided) and the boy offers to take her out to a local bar for some drinks and to hang out. Boy quickly teachers girl how to drive his car in fear that he would be too intoxicated to drive, which thankfully came in handy for the boy. They head out to the bar for roughly an hour or so, unfortunately boy had a few too many shots and is ready to go home. Girl takes boy home and follows boy to his place to stay the night. Unfortunately the boy had a few too many drinks, by the time they get up stairs the boy falls asleep on the girl and doesn’t wake up til the crack of dawn when she’s ready to head home.
Next day boy heads into work while the girl has the day off, instantly soon as she awakens she’s hitting up the boy to see how he was doing. Then out of no where she’s walking into work, hoping she doesn’t get into trouble for coming in just to talk with the boy, but the boy assures her nothing bad would come of it. They continue to chat, then head out to lunch. They decide to hook back up that night for more drinks after boy gets off work, but by the time boy gets off work the girl suddenly had a change in plans to go out with her girl friends. Boy says “No problem, go have fun with your friends! we can hook up afterwards” .. Throughout the night girls texting the boy to check in and make sure his doing ok. At some point she stops texting until the early break of morning when girl says she had a run in with her EX and was too upset to hang out.
By afternoon next day boy is checking on girl to make sure she’s ok and offers to take her out to help clear her mind but is quickly declined by girl. Later that evening boy is out drinking with his buddies when he receives a text from girl saying “Sorry, I only want to be friends” and foolishly responds with pure anger comments about what the past few weeks have been. Things quickly heat up and boy is too intoxicated to handle any kind of response that he ends up not responding to any text messages until the following week when he heads into work.
Girl tells boy what happened that night she ran into her ex, evidently the two getting into an argument about her being evil because she lead the boy on when she was not romantically interested in the boy and supposedly was only in it to drive his car. She then repeatedly tells boy that she is not interested in him and the boy accepts the fact and carries on with the two being friends.
Things go really wrong at work when boy tells one of his buddies what happened between him and girl. The girl quickly finds out from somebody else and is texting boy questioning why people are talking about what happened between the two. Boy admits to his mistake and apologizes for any trouble and confronts his friend about telling others.
Couple weeks go by as the two continue to talk, she begins to flirt with boy again but boy shrugs it off and carries on with the intentions of the two only being friends. Coming up to the weekend, boy heads out with buddies to go out drinking and have a good time so he offers to invite girl to hang out and go for drinks. Girls response back to boy was to only tell him “I thought I made my intentions very clear?” .. Boy is now seriously ticked with girl and goes off on her giving her an ear full, telling her to pretty much forget the two ever met, to delete his contact information and to never contact him again. Boy continues to party, now being extremely pissed off and finds no end to the limit of liquor he consumes til he collapses on the ground unable to remain consciousness. Boy wakes up within a couple hours and goes off on another tantrum sending girl a final message telling her that she needs to realize what the hell she’s doing, that she is on the rebound and needs to take into consideration how she’s toying with others emotions, she should have never thrown herself at boy as she did. Girl responds back threatening to file harrasment charges against boy because of what he said. Boy says to hell with it, deletes all of her contact information, text messages and every bit of her from his life and throws it all out the window along with his phone.
.. 6 weeks later, this boy realizes every day that he said some horrible things that he probably should not have done and is being dragged down further as the days go by that his up to his breaking point. Boy has already taken off a week from work, heading into a 2nd week off and is highly considering leaving work all together, dropping everything and heading off to another place as far far far away as he can get because he feels the loss of all hope and nothing but the empty feeling.
